finally i defeat "my dignity"
ngomong juga akhirnya :<
tauk deh, mgk dia lagi mikir or what
but i need some answer, apapun itu gue seneng, karena bakal buat gw lebih jelas.
jawaban ya : gw seneng banget, walo gw musti siap2 banget. i know in dis time yang ada prioritasnya ialah kamera (dia lagi maniak ma kameranya), game,game,game, komputer, hoby, frens, fam, baru cewek. Yeahhh... gw tauuu dan gw siap. lagian gw bukan tipikal ce yang nempel deket2 trus mo tau apa aja or minta dianterin mulu). gw mandiri kok, dan ga mau ngrepotin n ngebatasin gerak orang lain, karena gw jg ga mau sebaliknya (dibatasin). tiap kali bareng dia aja gw dah seneng bangettt, nyamannnnnnnnn, hepiiiiiiiiiiiiii, blushing....
klo jawabannya enggak : ok, i will stop it all. dan bisa dengan leluasa searching... n try to like someone else. tapi kuharap aku ma dia masih temenan, bgmnpun gw seneng banget bareng ma dia
tu kan... mo gimanapun, tetep hepi ending buat gw
tapi klo dia cuman diem aja, didnt say anything at all, gw bakalan tetep kayak gini, akrena gw keras kepala, karena gw dah stuck on him
dats why, i need answer from him
perjuangan berat ni buat ngungkapinnya, at last, setelah over 1 year... n passing thru happy&sad moments, stupid things et cetera cetera... buanyakkk banget. i think its time to make decision. toh sebenernya dia tahu gimana gw, gimana perasaan gw kan. I must make sure... klo gw ga ngomong n bak kura2 dalam perahu, gw pikir suatu saat nanti in d future gw bakal nyesel, coz i never ask him straight
yeahhh, gw ga mau nyesel dan ngelakuin hal sia2.
I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
OrdiN4rY P3oPl3- John Legend
seperti kata nando
"changing mind all the time" hahaha...
Luluch bener2 ga puguh soal dia :< hmm...
N bodo amatlah orang mo bilang apa, toh i am d one who undergo this. maybe in 1-2 months later i will change my mind...
we never know...
well, mungkin gw mikir kayak gini, gara2 kecelakaan Jumat malem. quite horrible. Orang klo deket kematian biasanya jadi nuthing to loose. Lakukan, katakan, selagi masih sempat...
daripada ntar nyesel...
at last, i knew little by little bout sum facts.
yeah.. never thought dat cute gal like her will did things like dat.
But.. she is more agressive than me haha...
oh ya, s'one said that i am "tabah" n "kuat" (wekekekekkkk...)
Femil is right, love is not enough to undergo this, tapi, juga butuh mental yang kuat. Maybe for some of people, its quite weird to love him like this (over 1 year!!), but its even more weird dat i love him. thats fact. no one will think dat i can love person like him.
but, love can not choose ha?u cannot push s'one to luv u. it just happen like dat.
i dunno whether i already push my self so hard to get thru all of this, although... maybe it wont end in a nice way...
coz i luv him?
or just coz of i try to prove dat i can get him? (haha, my ego)
D answer is :
1. I do luv him
2. Im kinda person who wont easily to give up
i do luv him, but not dat blind. He is only human, who makes a lot of mistakes. n of coz, sumtimes he looks so good, but the other times, he did sumthing stupid&annoying (upss... sorry).
i can not say, even if we get along each other later, will we be a good person?mutual couple?everythings all good?
i do not know
it cud be disaster (perhaps) or as good as dat i want.
but, talkin bout this, heart knows d difference between people that u love/like n between person that suit on you.
i prefer d second, coz dat is d actual reason for me. coz i suit on him. kinda person who will understand me naturally
im not a perfect gal, not d good one, not d pretty one, not d clever one, not even sweet. but, im hard headed :>
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